test of faith .....

test of faith ….
Test Of Faith
last wednesday anthony dwight peji tan passed away …. a cute six year old boy whose so kulet but loved by so many …. he’s apple son …. a dear friend … last friday i came to visit dwight indeed to bid my last goodbye …. there i saw apple , i saw how she cried a lot of times everytime she mentioned dwight , her ordeal , her reactions , how she questioned god , and most of all i saw her in her darkest day how she let go of dwight and accept her fate …. how she trust god to take good care of her little dwight …. yes it is painful to someone to lost the people whom they really love and treasure …. and this is the story of faith …. i copied this blog from apple …. and here it is ….

aT some
time in those early days—we do not know just at what time, whether in the days
of Moses or later—there was living a good man named Job. His home was in the

land

of

Uz

,
which may have been on the edge of the desert, east of the

land

of

Israel

.
Job was a very rich man. He had sheep, and camels, and oxen, and asses, counted
by the thousand. In all the east there was no other man so rich as Job.







And Job was a good man.
He served the Lord God, and prayed to God every day, with an offering upon
God’s altar, as men worshipped in those times. He tried to live as God wished
him to live, and was always kind and gentle. Every day, when his sons were out
in the field, or were having a feast together in the house of any of them, Job
went out to his altar, and offered a burnt-offering for each one of his sons
and his daughters, and prayed to God for them; for he said:

“It may be that my
sons have sinned or have turned away from God in their hearts; and I will pray
God to forgive them.”

At one time, when the
angels of God stood before the Lord, Satan the Evil One came also, and stood
among them, as though he were one of God’s angels. The Lord God saw Satan, and
said to [181] him, “Satan, from what place have you come?” “I
have come,” answered Satan, “from going up and down in the earth and
looking at the people upon it.”

Then the Lord said to
Satan, “Have you looked at my servant Job? And have you seen that there is
not another man like him in the earth, a good and a perfect man, one who fears
God and does nothing evil?” Then Satan said to the Lord: “Does Job
fear God for nothing? Hast thou not made a wall around him, and around his
house, and around everything that he has? Thou hast given a blessing upon his
work, and has made him rich. But if thou wilt stretch forth thy hand, and take
away from him all that he has, then he will turn away from thee and will curse
thee to thy face.”

Then the Lord said to
the Evil One, “Satan, all that Job has is in your power; you can do to his
sons, and his flocks, and his cattle, whatever you wish; only lay not your hand
upon the man himself.”

Then Satan went forth
from the Lord; and soon trouble began to come upon Job. One day, when all his
sons and daughters were eating and drinking together in their oldest brother’s
house, a man came running to Job, and said:

“The oxen were
plowing, and the asses were feeding beside them, when the wild men from the
desert came upon them, and drove them all away; and the men who were working
with the oxen [182] and caring for the asses have all been killed; and I am the
only one who has fled away alive!”

While this man was
speaking, another man came rushing in; and he said:

“The lightning
from the clouds has fallen on all the sheep, and on the men who were tending
them; and I am the only one who has come away alive!”

Before this man had
ended, another came in; and he said:

“The enemies from

Then at the same time,
one more man came in, and said to Job:

“Your sons and
your daughters were eating and drinking together in their oldest brother’s
house, when a sudden and terrible wind from the desert struck the house, and it
fell upon them. All your sons and your daughters are dead, and I alone have
lived to tell you of it.”

Thus in one day, all
that Job had—his flocks, and his cattle, and his sons and his daughters—all
were taken away; and Job, from being rich, was suddenly made poor. Then Job
fell down upon his face before the Lord, and he said:

“With nothing I
came into the world, and with nothing I shall leave it. The Lord gave, and the
Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.”

So even when all was
taken from him Job did not turn away from God, nor did he find fault with God’s
doings.

And again the angels of
God were before the Lord, and Satan, who had done all this harm to Job, was
among them. The Lord said to Satan, “Have you looked at my servant Job?
There is no other man in the world as good as he; a perfect man, one that fears
God and does no wrong act. Do you see how he holds fast to his goodness, even
after I have let you do him so great harm?” Then Satan answered the Lord,
“All that a man has he will give for his life. But if thou wilt put thy
hand upon and touch his bone and his flesh, he will turn from thee, and will
curse thee to thy face.”

And the Lord said to
Satan, “I will give Job into your hand; do to him whatever you please;
only spare his life.”

[183] Then Satan went
out and struck Job, and caused dreadful boils to come upon him, over all his
body, from the soles of his feet to the crown of his head. And Job sat down in
the ashes in great pain; but he would not speak one word against God. His wife
said to him, “What is the use of trying to serve God? You may as well
curse God, and die!”

But Job said to her,
“You speak as one of the foolish women. What? shall we take good things
from the Lord? and shall we not take evil things also?” So Job would not
speak against God. Then three friends of Job came to see him, and to try to
comfort him in his sorrow and pain. Their names were Eliphaz, and Bildad, and
Zophar. They sat down with Job, and wept, and spoke to him. But their words
were not words of comfort. They believed that all these great troubles had come
upon Job to punish him for [184] some great sin, and they tried to persuade Job
to tell what evil things he had done, to make God so angry with him.











For in those times most
people believed that trouble, and sickness, and the loss of friends, and the
loss of what they had owned, came to men because God was angry with them on
account of their sins. These men thought that Job must have been very wicked
because they saw such evils coming upon him. They made long speeches to Job,
urging him to confess his wickedness.

Job said that he had
done no wrong, that he had tried to do right; and he did not know why these
troubles had come; but he would not say that God had dealt unjustly in letting
him suffer. Job did not understand God’s ways, but he believed that God was
good; and he left himself in God’s hands. And at last God himself spoke to Job
and to his friends, telling them that it is not for man to judge God, and that
God will do right by every man. And the Lord said to the three friends of Job:

“You have not
spoken of me what is right, as Job has. Now bring an offering to me; and Job
shall pray for you, and for his sake I will forgive you.”

So Job prayed for his
friends, and God forgave them. And because in all his troubles Job had been
faithful to God, the Lord blessed Job once more, and took away his boils from
him, and made him well. Then the Lord gave to Job more than he had ever owned
in the past, twice as many sheep, and oxen, and camels, and asses. And God gave
again to Job seven sons and three daughters; and in all the land there were no
women found so lovely as the daughters of Job. After his trouble, Job lived a
long time, in riches, and honor, and goodness, under God’s care

Chaldea

have come in three bands, and have taken away all
the camels. They have killed the men who were with them; and I am the only one
left alive!”

what is a friend .....

friendship isn't always easily described. Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.friends are special people... in a very real sense, friends reflect the choices we make in life. ....

here's my description about friends .....

1. friend is ATE SALVE : she's my real best friend .... no doubt about it through the saddest times of my life .... a friend who taught me how to become strong and fight for what i believe in ... through the saddest and rough times of my life she stayed .. lend a helping hand indeed act as a real ate ..... my wings beneath my wing .

2. friend is KEN-KEN : we're like batman and robin .... she's my better half ...we're like cats and dogs when we fight .... but definitely one true friend .... a one to be trully cherish ...a friend for keeps .... she's like a song that tells :that kind of friend you know , would stay with you through all the pain ,never to leave you in the rain ,ready to listen to what you've been through , your woes and blues and share each other's... points of view ....

3. friend is ELENA : whooooh my friend for 17 years ..... my drinking buddy , my protector , my shield in times of troubles that's ellen ... and i love her dearly .... she's like a song that tells : Lay my life on the line, for you I will fight, for you I will die, with every breath, with all my soul , i'll give my word, I'll give it all put your faith in me, put your faith in me ,and I'll do anything... for you i will ....


4. friend is ROWENA MAY : the most kind among the astig gang ... so pasensyosa ... even if she's mad ... she will not make you feel that you're bad she's just say "hay naku kung di lang kita kaibigan" .... being with may is a blessing ... she listens and understand ... my phonebuddy when things aren't that good .... she's like a song that tells : When youre down and troubled , and you need a helping hand , and nothing is going right, close your eyes and think of me , and soon I will be there ,to brighten up even your darkest nights ... you got a friend .....

5. friend is LOLITA:the most outspoken in the group .... when she speaks , she mean it well she's the one i always listen to ... she'll not condemn nor judge but she'll says that you're wrong in the nicest ways she can speak to . ... a friend that accept me just the way i am though i am not so nice .... she's like a song that tells :In good times and bad times , I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for ...


6.friend is MILA : when i think of mila ...i think of beautiful phrases ... beutiful lines ... words to ponder .... that's her ... the beauty of friendship that mila gave me ... she's a friend so dear that i will surely cherish and keep. she's like a song that tells : so we're okay , were fine , baby im here to stop your crying ,chase all the ghosts from your head , im stronger than the monster beneath your bed ,smarter than the tricks played on your heart ,well look at them together then well take them apart,adding up the total of a love thats true ,multiply life by the power of two .......


7.friend is SANTIE MARIE , ANALYN , ESMERALDA : these are the people whom i dont talk and see that much .... but definitely a friends to keep .... though we're apart and have no time to be together , these people never leave ... infact they stayed and continue to be my friends .... they are like a song that tells : But of all these friends and lovers ,there is no one compares with you ,and these memories lose their meaning ,when i think of love as something new
though i know i'll never lose affection ,for people and things that went before
I know i'll often stop and think about them , In my life i love you more ....


8. friend is ATEPEACHY : a true friend will keep one's friend secret and that's atepeachy ... with her i found a friend .... an adviser .... a confidante all packed in one . she's like a song that tells : Count on me through think and thin ,a friendship I will never end when you are weak, I will be strong ,helping you to carry on , call on me, I will be there , don't be afraid ,please believe me when I say count on...


and to those people who have touched my life and share a journey with me i thanked you ... words are not enough how thankful i am because i have you all in my life .... to those who stays and never leave i love you all so dearly ....

hard headed me ....

why is it hard to let go ????
why is it hard to forget ????
sometimes the thing that matters to me is my heart
and most of the time i always got hurt
i always forget the rules and follow my heart .
do i deserve to be like this ???
alone ??????
maybe the answer still hangs in my head ....

foolish ....

i made a fool out of my self ...
i fooled my friend ... indeed i fooled you .
why is it hard to comeback when you know its the best thing to do ?


foolish heart ... foolish mind
foolish ... oh so foolish of me.
wish my thoughts are here again ...
i lose my track and still am losing my insanity .

a trip to lobo, batangas

last weekend i got the change to see lobo , batangas , i never thought that aside from remote areas like benguet or batanes there's a beautiful place like lobo ... i wonder why i am so amaze of the place .... the trip was so fun ... infact i enjoyed it though a bit tiring ....

sa totoo lang hindi ko akalain na uso pa din pala sa batangas ang ganung klaseng pagsakay sa isang sasakyan , siksikan sa isang jeep na ang pangsampuan lang na upuan ... nagiging labing isa o labingdalawa at hindi lang yan sa gitna ng jeepney ay nakabalandra ang mga ibat-ibang klase ng kalakal na ibebenta nila may sinturis na ngayon ko lang nadinig na sa tamang pangalan nya sa tagalog ay dalandan , may pinipig , bigas , lansones , saging at kung anu-ano pa actually para kaming tinapa ... o sige na nga para kaming sardinas na habang bumabaybay kayo sa inyong patutunguan eh may mga tao duon na bumibili at nag bebenta ng kanilang mga kalakal ... mga ordinaryong tao na ibat-iba ang mga katangian .... mga ordinaryong tao na mababakas ang kasimplehan ng kanilang pamumuhay .

mahigit isang oras ang babaybayin mo kung gusto mong makapunta ng lobo , sa isang oras na yun na puro mga puno , bangin , zigzag na daan , amoy ng tae ng kalabaw at ang mga baku-bakung daan , masasabi ko na naman na sulit ang pag punta ko sa lobo .

bakit nga ba ako nakarating sa lobo ? kasi ba naman etong si jopotskie kinaray-karay ako duon .... biro mo alas kwatro ng umaga gising na ako .... nag hahanda na para lang makarating sa lobo . classic di ba ? para naman ang layo ng lugar ... pero promise malayo nga sya kung tutuusin .... duon kasi dinedevote ni jopotskie ang araw ng linggo sa lobo , andun kasi ang mga tao na nakasama nya ng matagal , mga tao na simple lang ang hangad sa buhay, walang halong kaplastikan , mga tao na ang nais lamang ay magbigay ng parangal at pag papahalaga sa amang nagpahiram ng ating buhay ...

akala ko noong una hindi ako mag eenjoy kasi ba naman antok na antok pa ako kulang na kulang ako sa tulog ... tapos ang maririnig ko mga kanta at panalangin na nagbibigay papuri sa diyos .... sabagay sa totoo lang ulit di naman ako debotong nilalang hindi nga ako nag sisimba eh . madalas nagagawi lang ako sa simbahan pag birthday ko , minsan nga hindi pa o kaya naman pag may matindi akong problema na hindi ko na kayang dalhin ....

pero si jopotskie grabe karir sa kanya ang pagpunta ng lobo ... doon binibigay nya ang sarili nya sa mga tao na kanyang nakakasalamuha ...
sa loob ng dalawang oras na pag woworship nila isang nilalang ang nakapukaw ng aking atensyon .... si tatay hindi ko kasi natandaan ang kanyang pangalan kaya tatawagin ko na lang sya ng tatay ....

isang matandang lalaki na puno ng katiwasayan sa buhay .... kuntento kung anuman ang meron sya . sa unang kita ko pa lang sa kanya mababakas na sa kanyang mukha na masaya sya sa kanyang buhay , maaliwalas ang kanyang mukha .... may kirot akong nadama sa aking puso ... biro mo buti pa ang mama na ito kontento na kung ano ang meron siya samantalang ako i always asked for more or indeed i dont value what i have .... ( sigh )

sa kanyang pag sasalita naibahagi nya ang kanyang buhay na dinaanan kung paano mabuhay sa maliit lang na salapi . biro mo ang two hundred pesos malaking bagay na sa kanila samantalang ako , yun 200pesos pambili lang ng magazine o kung ano man na pang kikay ko .... sa kanila ang perang yun pangkain na nila ng kaniyang pamilya .... he made me realized how lucky i am ... sa kanyang testimonial sabi nya minsan daw dapat itest natin si god kasi si god kahit na anuman ang mangyari di nya tayo pinapabayaan ... pag nagbigay ka ng sapat mas malaki ang kapalit noon di man pera pero sa ibat-ibang bagay bumabawi si god ...

sa totoo lang ulit lahat naman ng sinabi ni tatay may tama .... may dating kumbaga ... halimbawa na ako .... sa totoo lang ang swerte - swerte ko biro mo may trabaho ako , kumikita ng maayos , nabibili ko kung ano man ang aking naisin , nakakapunta sa mga magagandang lugar , nakakain ng masarap sa tamang oras , lahat ano pa ba ang dapat kung hilingin .... dapat doon pa lang makuntento na ako .... pero hindi malungkot pa din ako bakit kasi may isa bagay pa na hindi pa binibigay saken ang diyos ....

kasalanan ko din naman kasi hindi kasi ako nag titino ... hindi natutoto masyado kasi akong mapusok.... hige lang ng hige ... kaya siguro hindi pa sya dumarating kasi masyado akong pasaway .... hehehehehehe and really i don't value what i have , i keep asking for more na feeling ko ang lungkot ng buhay ko na malaking kawalan sken kung wala ang isang bagay na yun na totoong magpapaligaya sken .... hindi ba ako ang unfair ? sa totoo lang ulit i am so lucky kasi in all of my trials and difficulties lagi syang nandyan ako lang ang hindi marunong mag give thanks well i do appreciate it pero i am looking for what i dont really have . dapat ngayon matuto na ako kasi di na naman ako bumabata infact i should learn to value everything .... a trip to lobo was indeed educating .... infact i learned to value myself more and realized that god is too good to me because no matter how bad and mean i can be he still continue to shower me with lots of blessing .... he never give up on me so why should i question him about that someone .... well infact i know that someday god will bring me to that right someone ....

tragedy...glorietta bombing

october 19,2007

bilang isang empleyado sa media .... ang nais namin ay makapaghatid ng balita ... ng maganda at makabuluhang storya ...

october 19, 2007 .... isang malakas na pagsabog sa glorietta 2 sa makati ang naganap . isang trahedya na ikinamatay ng walong katao at mahigit sa pitongpung katao ang nasugatan ... at dumarami pa ....

kanina lahat ng tao sa newsroom ay abalang-abala sa pag hahanap ng impormasyon para makakuha ng mga latest na video na maari namin na maipakita sa taong bayan ...
lahat ay abala-abalang , walang nakakaramdam ng pagod , lahat ay kumikilos para lamang maihatid sa taong bayan ang mga pangyayari na dinulot ng trahedyang ito ...
at isa na ako sa mga tao na yun ....
kanina ang akala ko okey na yun mauna kami sa gma 7 na makapagbreakinng news ... aba malaking kagalakan ata yun nauna kami, naungusan namin sila sa magagandang video ... biro mo may chopper shot pa kami ayos ...
na ang lahat ng ito ay kompetisyon ... pagandahan at malaliman ng storya na makukuha ...
eh di ba masarap yata yun feeling na ikaw ang exclusive .... may magandang coverage na maipapakita sa tao ....

kanina din habang nag nenews central ako .... habang unti -unti ng pumapasok sa utak ko ang pangyayaring naidulot ng trahedyang ito ... ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang awa sa puso ko sa mga tao na nasugatan , sa mga tao na namatayan , sa mga tao na naiwanan ng kanilang mga mahal sa buhay ....

ang pait na idinulot ng trahedyang ito ... ang mga bakas ng pagsabog sa glorietta na nagdulot ng maraming abala sa mga tao na nais lamang na maglibang o kaya'y maghanap ng pagkakakitaan sa buhay ...
sa mga tao na hindi na mararamdaman pa ang magmahal ...
sa mga tao na naghahangad ng panibagong buhay
sa mga tao na nawalan ng pamilya at mahal sa buhay

bakit ba may mga tao na ang nais lamang ay makasakit ng kapwa ? bakit may mga tao na walang awa na kumikitil ng buhay ng mga inosenteng nilalang ? sana lang nakakatulog pa kayo sa gabi ...
sana may nararamdaman pa kayo na konting pagmamahal sa inyong mga puso ...
sana habang pinanonood nyo sa tv ang ang kaharasan na idinulot nyo ay magawa nyo pa at maramdaman kayo ng kahit na konting konsensya ...
sa totoo lang .... walang ginawang kasalanan ang mga tao na nasa glorietta kanina ...
dahil ba ang gusto nyo lamang na makapanakot ?
maghasik ng lagim ?
sabihing mahina ang ating pamahalaan at walang tibay na maaasahan ... ?
ang alam ko bawat nilalang ay may puso , bawat isa sa ating mag bait na itinatago ..
pero hindi ko din alam ang kasagutan ...
ang alam ko sa ngayon madaming tao ang nakakaramdam ng sakit na idinulot ng trahedyang ito , marami ang nawalan ng mahal sa buhay na dulot ng mga taong hangad ay makapanakit ng kapwa .... sana lang may pagmamahal pa kayong natitira sa puso nyo ..
at sana hindi nyo maramdaman ang sakit na iniwan nyo sa mga tao na nagdurusa ngayon.

october 14...a time to mourn

it was a fine day then when ellen texted me something , she told me that jessica's mom passed away . i was in shocked ... i didn't expect it was too soon .... my tears suddenly fell as if i was the one who lose her ....

last august , nanay discovered that she has a liver cancer , at first we thougth the pain she was having was brought about by her heart complication , that time nanay was so strong ...
she was hospitalized for a week ... we even visited her at the hospital .... she even laughed , tells story to us , she even said she wanted to go home ...
i don't see anything ... i dont see any sign that she will be gone soon ....
the big c got her .... it was a big lost but then again nanay will not suffer more...
today ... nanay linda passed away and i am so sad of losing her .
i was in shocked and in pain ..... i cried ... i really cried of losing her ....

i will surely misses nanay erlinda ... a kindhearted mom who sacrifice eveything for her five children .... her husband died when jessica's still five then ...
how can i forget a person who's so thoughtful in so many ways ...
a great cook ... a caring and loving grandmother to migs .... a happy person ,. she's so easy to be with ... i will surely misses the food she always cooked for us ... everything about her will surely misses .

today i'll bid goodbye to nanay ... i dont know how long will it take to stop me from crying everytime i remember her ... but one thing is for sure i've known a great woman , a mom that will do everything and will sacrifice everything for her children ... a time for me to mourn and a time for me to say goodbye ... thanks nanay i will remember you always ....